Last Monday morning I got some horrible news. My friend texted me and said our friend Tammy had passed away. At first I couldn't believe it because she was only 38 years old. As it sunk in I started to shake and cry. All I could think of were her boys. They are only 2 and 4, they can't lose their Mom!
She was going through alot of heartache that she didn't deserve. Her husband left her and ever since then she was sick and the doctors couldn't quite figure out what was wrong. Despite feeling awful and wanting to stay in bed, she got out of bed every morning and make every moment with her boys count. She made them special breakfasts, went bike riding, walking and on nature adventures! She didn't have alot of money, but she had alot of love. We helped her out with clothes and toys for the kids (and a few special things for her!) at Christmas and she made this past Christmas magical for them. I'll never forget when she wasn't feeling well she said to me "Whatever it is, I'm one tough SOB".
As I thought about her death and how it was so unfair, I thought to myself "why is this happening? There must be a reason". What I think is that God is trying to teach us to cherish the time we have with our loved ones and tell them what they mean to us. He took Tammy because she was hurting and needed rest. She lived every minute of those 38 years of her life to the fullest; she loved big, laughed hard and was so vibrant. She was beautiful inside and out.
Now I find myself thinking about everything before I act or speak. I am appreciating the small moments and pushing the stress aside. The small giggles shared between my girls, the kisses, the cuddles, everything feels so much better when we stop taking things for granted.
Thank you my friend for teaching me these lessons. You will forever be in my heart! ♥